Case in point: This morning in my email was a message from Monster about a possible job. I clicked the link and came to a position opening up for an Art Director. A month ago I would have skimmed the position, been scared off by the responsibility, and not applied. This morning I said "Bullshit" and applied - I'm motivated, enthusiastic, goal-oriented, efficient and determined, dammit! I can totally do this job. DAMMIT! GIVE ME THIS JOB!!
In the past month I've had lots of responsibility dumped on me - both with Lakeshore Light Opera as the President Elect, and in the Shipper job - in which, I feel, I was DENIED CRITICAL NEED TO KNOW INFORMATION. Specifically, I have to make sure EVERYONE in the company is doing their job right. Except the Old Guy in the Warehouse (henceforth Old G). Like, I have to make sure the Russian Receptionist (hereafter Red, not because I'm going McCarthy but because she's a redhead) is entering the hand-written orders into the computer accurately so that the orders are filled out right. Like, I have to make sure the Hispanic Guy (hereafter Furious D, because he's always mad, and the name amuses me) is filling out the orders right and not ignoring the hand-written orders because he's trusting Red to do her job. Like, I have to make sure our Finances Dept. isn't letting orders through to the Shipping Dept. before we make sure the client can actually pay. I'm not a shipper, dammit. I'm an Operations Manager, and THAT'S how it's going on my CV.
So I've had all this responsibility dumped on me after spending a lot of my life avoiding it whenever possible and accepting it whenever not. So maybe the Universe is telling me something. Hence the Art Director application.
Also so there.
In less intense life altering news, I bought a Wacom tablet. WOO HOO!! And all I had to do was mooch food from the rents for a month and sell off half my rpg stuff. Less five year old decrepid dying old one-button Mac mouse in my life makes Tal a happy man. ^_^
Something's come over me lately. It's been growing for a little while but I haven't been able to put it into words until now... I feel like a corner has been turned in my life. I feel... coalesced? Focussed? Distilled? Something like that. Standing up to the Boss's Daughter (henceforth The BD) was a turning point - I feel like I've realized my abilities and strengths and I'm not going to let anyone take that away from me any more.