Talyesin's Tales

Anyone wanting in on Neville's big rescue be online TOMORROW, WEDNESDAY NIGHT, after 7:30-8:00 EST!

Thanks!

Ganked from Arieth..

*wink wink* *nudge nudge* *waggles eyebrows*

Inspired by a friend's idea of playing a 70s-era Harry Potter game (when all their parents were kids) I came up with this image of Narcissa Black, Draco's mum...

Okay, so over in Fidelius Hogwarts, the Death Eaters have kidnapped Neville, and last night, ol' Nev came face to face with the Great and Powerful Oz - I MEAN Lord Voldemort. Which is to say, me.

(Yes, I play Harry AND Big V. I spend a lot of time thwarting myself.)

Anyhow.

So last night, there we are, the dungeon beneath the Malfoy Manor. It's dark and creepy. Neville is weak from blood loss and has lost his wand. Big V has all the cards - hell, I OWN this deck. I'm standing over this weak, shivering child. Totally in the moment. Completely EVIL. ABSOLUTELY in control.

So what do I do?

I START TELLING HIM MY EVIL SCHEME.

WTF?!

I swear I had no intention of doing that. I swear. I know I get into my characters and I've heard it enough times to believe I'm a pretty good role-player. But there's being in-character and then there's losing oneself to the role!

Sheesh. At least now I understand WHY they do it. It's a power trip. It's gloating. It's FUN.

If you want to read it, go here:
http://www.livejournal.com/community/fidelius_rpg/84377.html

Okay gang, help me out here...

I'm looking for a youngish actor, 15-20ish, to use for icons for Harry over at Fidelius. Not Elijah Wood, not Daniel Radcliffe...

So who?

I may bitch about the politics and bureacratic stupidity...

The company may be the last vestiges of Bitter Angry Rob...

I may LONG for the day that I cast off the mantle of President...

THE SHOW IS GOING TO BE FREAKING FANTASTIC.


Man. Seriously. I couldn't be prouder of this production. THEY ROCK. They make it worth the bullshit.

If we have time I'd love to sneak the Gathering Staff into the second run during the evening of the 22nd...

Something that came out of the rp over at Fidelius Hogwarts the other night, I'll spare you the context, but which I found particularly magical and I wanted to share it with you and remember it myself:

"Everywhere is a kissing place."

Don't you hate it when you know you have to go to get something at the grocery store, but don't remember what? So I think I'll probably stay in... or not. Maybe a trip will declog my brain.

Work is going fine.

The show is going to KICK ASS. If I survive it, I can justifiably be proud of something I had almost no hand in creating.

For those of you who know OF Fidelius Hogwarts, my online Harry Potter rpg, but who don't follow it, you'll be entertained (I trust) to discover Harry and Luna have broken up, Hermione and Ron have broken up, Ginny and Neville have broken up, Draco proposed to Pansy (who is in love with George Weasley), ... oh and Harry kissed Ginny. And Hermione told Harry she wouldn't be with him if he wasn't going to commit to her with a whole heart. And Ron had sex with a polyjuiced Blaise, thinking it was Hermione.

Yes, it's a soap opera. But angst makes for good drama!! *sigh*

I have more to say about my online rpg than about my real life. Eeesh.

Ever have a role-playing character do something you hated him for?

Ugh. Over in Fidelius Hogwarts, Harry broke Luna's heart and kissed Hermione and Ron saw and now Harry hates himself. And I hate him, so that's where we see eye to eye at least.

Rich? You're right. I play angst-ridden characters. *shakes his head*

But angst leads to drama, and drama leads to good stories... *sigh*

You know you're too attached to your character when he does something morally wrong and YOU feel icky about it.

There is no emoticon for what I am feeling.

Really, literally. LJ has no emoticon for "Vaguely ill and Morally Malaised." I had to settled for "Uncomfortable" because they didn't even have "Disgusted."

"WTF was he thinking?" is not a good thought to wake up to. Blick. XP Especially when the "he" is yourself.

The more I think about it, the sicker I feel about it.

Lousy conscience... :(

Damn you, Fidelius Hogwarts!

Damn you!

If it weren't for you, I wouldn't have had to buy the Harry Potter action fig I found today!

With Dueling Action!

So I've learned that they've opened up the position I'm currently occupying at work for internal application - which basically means I'm not guaranteed anything. So I made an application myself, because steady work is steady work, and the full-time permanent position comes with a raise from the full-time temporary position, and because they're looking for someone who speaks English well. ((*points to self excitedly**)) Time will tell...

In other news, I'm LOVING the Fidelius Hogwarts game where I'm playing Harry Potter. Now, I've been accused (perhaps rightly, perhaps not) that I have a tendency to play angsty characters. (Sullivan? Paranoid, but not angsty. Shawn? Either of them? Zero angst - although Older Shalmar Shawn got bitter... Nym? Dramatic, but not angsty. Phoenix? bitchy. Buck? Dedicated, committed, loyal... okay, a little angst over the whole estranged fiancee thing.) But by all the role-playing gods, is Harry ever angsty. And self-involved. And curiously enough, self-sacrificing. Staying in character is my main goal - I've been accused of being 'terminally in character' - which I take as a complement, quite honestly. As long as the character is recognizably Harry! I love it when someone writes, 'OMG, that was SO Harry!' - it means I'm successfully fulfilling that person's expectations of a character I had no say in creating.

So, thanks, CrzyJen and Roy, for creating FH, and thanks to all my fellow players for some great RP. And a chance to play Harry.

For anyone who wants to know, Harry just kissed Luna - actually, I'm going to add Harry to my LJ Friends so anyone who's interested can check that out...

Let's see, what else... Not a whole lot. LLO is gearing up for another show. Still no car, but you all knew that... got some freelance stuff going, a CD cover and some illustrations... Nobody reads this far so booga booga icky icky ptang zoop boing NEE!

Okay. Back to it!

So last night I couldn't get online, because for some random reason my computer decided to ask me for my username and password. Oh, and erased the number that the modem auto-dials. So after lumbering around blindly for a while, I was able to get the phone number up and running, but I couldn't remember my username or password, since I chose them three years ago, typed them in once, clicked on "Remember Password" and promptly forgot about them. So I called the colba.net Technical Support line. HAH HAH, joke's on me, they aren't open after 5 PM on Sundays.

The annoying thing was I really, really wanted to get online. The Fidelius Hogwarts (Harry Potter) rpg was up and running and I really wanted to play. But I couldn't. It was like being invited to a really great fun party where you know there are only going to be fun people to hang out with, and discovering at the last minute you can't go.

I told you that story so I could get to the point of my post. Yes, I actually have one.

So I mention my party analogy to my brother, and his response was along the lines of, "It's not like you were ACTUALLY going to be there. I mean, you can't experience a party online. You can't share laughter. Oh, sure, there's "LOL" but it's not the same as actually being with your friends."

This got me mad. It was, in essence, saying that online friends were less friends than real life friends. I have online friends I have more in common with, write to more often, and interact with on a more regular basis than some friends I've had for years. So the online relationship is somehow less worthy than the real life one? Explain that one to me, I don't get it. I often have more fun online with people I haven't even MET in real life than with people I've known for YEARS.

Grrrr.

I dunno. All I know is, I missed out on a Harry Potter game, and it pissed me off. Sorry gang.

In case you missed it, buried in my long-winded geek post, I've joined an online Harry Potter rpg. In which I play Harry Potter _and_ Hagrid.

Wow I'm a geek.

Recent posts have had me reflecting on the nature of my geekness...

It started way, way back - I was watching Star Trek on Sunday mornings as a kid. Reading comics. I had all the Star Wars cards before I saw the movie, and collecting action figures started with Chewbacca and proceeded from there. My Dad read us The Hobbit when I was eight, that got me good and hooked. I was playing the first edition of Dungeons and Dragons (even before Basic) way, way back in Grade 2. I started collecting comics, really collecting them, mind, around age 11 or so. Read The Lord of the Rings at age 12, and again at 13. By then I had Star Wars figures, and GI Joe had just been released in the smaller format - the codenamed agents who fought against Cobra. My first was Rock'N'Roll - without the swivel-arm articulation. And then Transformers started. I collected comics and Super Powers figures through High School, rushing home to watch GIJoe and Transformers after school, reading Dragonlance and playing Tanis Half-Elven in the AD&D rpg. I got into a pretty solid AD&D group from age 18 to 22 or so. Bought all the Forgotten Realms novels until they got dumb. Stood in line to see Batman. Rushed home on Friday nights to watch X-Files. Collected Magic cards. Watched all the Star Trek movies, even owning a couple. Wrote superhero fiction all through university. Played in Star Trek rpgs and in one Star Wars rpg where I play the only character who's interacted with ALL the major characters from the films (sorry, y'all - none of you have met Darth Vader, and he and Shawn know each other pretty well by know). Big time Matrix addict. Collect DC Direct action figures (the new Kingdom Come figs are sweeeeeet), and the new line of Marvel Legends. Recently was convinced of the beauty and joy that is Doctor Who by my good friend Rich. I have Alex Ross art hanging in my living room. I have an Xavier's Institute t-shirt, and a Strong Bad t-shirt, and a beat-up, well-loved X-Files cap, and my trip to NY convinced me I don't have enough geek-based clothes. Fully half my CD collection are film scores, the majority of which are geek movies or bought because they're inspiration for rpgs. I've dressed as Green Lantern, the Spectre, and Dr.Doom - not too mention, Imposing Lad. I'm getting involved with the Gathering of the Gargoyles. And now I'm playing Harry Potter in an online rpg. And I've probably forgotten a bunch of geek stuff I've done.

I'm a geek, and fiercely proud of it. And never happier than when I'm living that geek life.